At a loss...

I'm at a loss for words right now. Kim had to rush to the doctor this morning because she started spotting. They did an ultrasound and saw nothing. Later she started bleeding a little more heavily and she is showing the sure signs of a miscarriage. We won't know for sure until the blood tests come back on Friday.
I don't know how to feel. I am just numb. It's like for once, I felt God was smiling on us. Now I think otherwise. I wonder if he even cares. I wonder if he even exists. Why would he do this if he did?
I'm still getting emails from friends and family, congratulating us on our new family member. What a cruel joke.

I guess we'll push on and find our way from here...

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